Exactly 6 months ago I hopped on a plane to Bali with no return ticket to the US (much to the airline’s chagrin…that’s another story). I remember, like yesterday, the feeling of dread and fear in the pit of my stomach before I left–or, rather, leapt. It’s a feeling I’ve had before and continue to have when embarking on a new experience, no matter how exciting or “good” it is. Do you know what I mean?
The scariest part was that, as a recovering perfectionist and list-maker, my “plan” was no plan. It was also scary and probably frustrating for a lot of my friends and family. I thank you all for your continued love regardless; it’s helped more than anything to keep me going!
Anyway, I couldn’t have planned it better myself. I really think I did “let go and let God.” Something with divine intervention happened.
The magic of the past six months has taken me to paradises that include Indonesia (Bali, the Gili Islands, Lombak), Malaysia (Kuala Lumpur, Penang, the Perhentian Islands), Laos, and Thailand (Phuket, Chiang Mai, Pai, a Buddhist Monastery). See, I told you I’m a recovering list-maker. And listing them out doesn’t do it any justice. It’s really beyond words, as I keep saying over and over (because I have no other words for it!).
I’ve seen beauty I didn’t know existed, met people who I feel like I’ve known my whole life, and experienced an intensity of feelings and emotions that are beyond what I knew possible — all of it making it undeniably evident to me that there is something sacred going on beyond what meets the eye.
I’m so so grateful I’ve had this time to slow down and get some perspective. I’ve realized that I was living under a chronic, high level of stress that had become my norm. My new philosophy has been to follow the messages my heart, intuition, and body are sending. They’ve been sending them for a long time now [I see it now as I remember myself in New York, always waking up tired and feeling like I had no time or energy to spare past my loaded schedule, standing in front of the kitchen cupboard looking for something to satisfy me (in vain), snapping easily at people I love, etc.]
Why didn’t I listen earlier to those signals? Well, I couldn’t hear them or didn’t understand the messages. [Thank you, again, loved ones for your patience if you could see it before I could.]
I firmly believe that a miscommunication between mind, body and soul is what really lies beneath the issues that many people deal with today, including excess weight, emotional eating, tiredness, skin issues, inability to focus, disease, etc.
The good news is that when the communication is understood, healing is very possible. The other news is that it can be tough to do alone. I’m grateful for my own support system of coaches, family, friends, and fellow travelers I’ve met along the way. With this foundation and by following my heart and intuition, I’ve been healing my relationship with food/body (and emotional eating), began my monthly cycle again after 18 months of amenorrhea, and I finally wake up refreshed (without an alarm and with the sun!).
My coaching practice has benefited and evolved as I use my experience to help others use their own “issues” as tools to connect with their body, heart and intuition in order to live a life of their dreams (and to effortlessly transform those issues in the process). I’ve started calling myself a Dream-Life Coach because I don’t think “Health Coach” encompasses the full picture (although I still work with people on their wellbeing as it’s an absolute requisite for loving life!).
I’ve found my heart very happy in Thailand, so much so that I’m taking time to live in Chiang Mai among people who feel like family. This is also allowing me to open up a few more coaching spots and share the love with a new program: Life by Design. I’ll be sharing more about this soon.
The journey is nowhere near over and everyday I find new fears and challenges pop up that keep pushing me to grow (yippee!!…*eyes rolling*). I’m really humbled by this experience, knowing there’s so much I still don’t know, and I’m grateful for the chance to leap into the unknown. My wish is that everyone have that opportunity too.
Thank you to all who have supported me with sweet words, kind thoughts, etc. over the past 6 months (or more)!